Madison revealed more behind-the-scenes details on the December 13, 2021, episode of the Power: Hugh Hefner podcast, including her “traumatic” first sexual encounter with Hefner.
“I was wasted,” she said of the experience. “He was literally pushed on top of me. And after it happened, I was just mortified and embarrassed, and it had way more of an emotional impact on me than I thought it would.”
She reportedly did not expect to have s-x that night and, instead, thought it would be more of a first date.
“I thought it would be more the type of thing where I saw what happened, saw what was going on. If I wasn’t comfortable with it, I wouldn’t have to do anything, and I could make my decision on whether I wanted to come back for date No. 2 or not,” said Madison.
The TV personality shared, “I thought he was really smart, I really looked up to him, so I liked him, and it wasn’t that the idea of possibly having s– with him repelled me so much – I know that’s not relatable to a lot of people because they’re like, ‘Oh, he’s an old man, gross.'”
“It was more the group aspect that was really out of my comfort zone and just the feeling of ‘Wow, OK, that happened. Everybody knows it happened,” Madison reflected on the disturbing encounter. “I kind of all of a sudden felt like everybody was going to know about me, and I was horrified by it.”
After the jarring private moment, she reportedly felt it was time to ask Hefner if she could move into the Playboy Mansion.
“I felt like, ‘There’s no taking that back, so I might as well get what I came for,'” Madison elaborated. “I felt like by moving myself in and getting what I wanted from the situation, that was demanding respect in a way. I felt like if I didn’t do that, I was just going to be haunted by this experience.”